Monday, July 9, 2018

June Favorites

I nearly forgot my June favorites list!

But here it is, front and center.

What I'm doing...

We got away for a family vacation for a week. It was sososososooo good! Now that we have kids, a good vacation is all in the sleeping arrangements. If no one sleeps well, especially for a whole week, then it's better to just stay home. But this trip was probably our best family vacation so far.



The six oldest cousins including our girls slept in a bunk room with it's own little half bath. A nightly sleepover? uh, yes! They loved it. Our oldest niece on Adam's side of the family is so great with our kids. You wouldn't know she was 5 years older for how patient and caring she is with them. They adore her for it.



Our house was right on a lake. We were all jumping off the pier daily for swims.

What I'm reading...



I heard about this book, Survival for Busy Women from one of Michelle Duggar's books (which is it's own gold mine wisdomfor managing our homes and kids well). I had to get it. Managing our home well is an ongoing interest and need.  I couldn't find it at our library but now I'm glad that I just went ahead and bought it. I'll be turning to it again and again. It's just brimming with wisdom on making relative peace out of chaos. It has tips for needs from moving to making time for friendships to meal planning to traveling well with a family. It's geared towards all women whether you are working out of home or in your home.

What I'm using...

I'm not much of a tanner. I think I've been in a tanning bed once. I'm too paranoid of premature aging and skin cancer. No thanks. Getting some color every spring and summer is still something that I like though... just not the risk that comes with the sun. After trying out lots of self tanner products through high school and college, I finally used Jergens Natural Glow lotion. It's a daily lotion that builds color over time. Since it's gradual, it's never streaky or orange-y. Plus it smells okish.



What I'm wearing...

In the spring I lightened up my makeup routine. I thought for about 2 seconds that maybe I might just go makeup free for the summer. Mmmmmmm, nah. I don't' cake it on but I like the feeling of a little mascara, liner, and a light glow. So here's what I came up with...


First I use a pump of Aveeno lotion with spf all over my face and neck. Whatever is left gets rubbed into the backs of my hands. Then BB cream with spf gets dabbed on my T zone to soften up pores and blemishes. Next, I use dark brown eye shadow, an angled brush, and a spooley brush to fill in my brows. Not too crazy much but just enough for some good definition. Sometimes I'll use that same color and the fluffier eye brush to smudge some at the outer corners of my eyes. Next, that same brush is used to dab a bit of illuminating powder under my brows, at the inner corners of my eyes, and along the upper ridge of my cheek bones. A good swipe of mascara and I'm done! It all takes about three minutes and looks natural but polished. For a special occasion or when the weather gets cooler, I use my index finger to dab the dark eye shadow on my top lid. Easy peasy. 

This routine has also completely streamlined what I buy and store. 


What I'm making...

Every summer, our church has a day camp for the kids of our community. The campers are fed breakfast and lunch. We have games, music, a craft, and a big water day on the last day of the week. This year I volunteered to organize the crafts and spent a good chunk of June making plans for it. Pinterest was my source for a few simple crafts for the week including giant paper popsicle, hand print parrots, tie dye canvas bags, diy pinwheels, and paper straw snakes. We'll also be having an origami station set up for early finishers to practice their creative folding skills.

Paper popsicle power!





Thursday, July 5, 2018

Daily Routine for Summer 2018

Per usual, our days are full.

Summer has it's own way of being full but is full none the less.
One of the first things I got into my head when I became a mom is that a routine that everyone can rely on is a major tool for peace and stability.
When the kids and I are on a good working routine we are all better rested, better exercised, better socialized, take better care of our belongings, and life is just smoother.
Perfect? No, of course not.
Don't let the lie of perfection creep in here.
Genuine peace and stability, though? You bet!

Here is what our 2018 summer routine looks like for a dad, a mom, a 5 year old girl, a 4 year old girl, and a nearly 3 year old boy...

7 dad and mom awake*
8:30 out of bed, eat breakfast, Adam leaves for work
9 put breakfast things away, brush teeth, get dressed if needed**
9:30 playtime or run errands
11:30 clean up or go home, wash hands, prep lunch
12 lunch, clean up, cartoon or kindle time
1 naps
3 up, eat a snack, playtime
5 daddy home: tackle him
6 clean up toys one last time, dinner, baths, watch a movie together if we stay home
7 boy goes to bed
8 girls go to bed
10 mom and dad go to bed

* I am not necessarily up. I'm terrible at getting out of bed before 8. I tend to stay put, read my bible, pray, and think about stuff till I can hear the kids get restless in their beds. They stay in bed till we let them get up.
** The kids don't wear pj's. The girls just wear stretchy shorts with a T shirt or cotton dress. Malachi wears a onesie or romper most days. All is comfy enough to sleep in and play in. If the clothing isn't visibly dirty, the kids stay in what they've got on. I think the longest run in the same outfit was three nights and four days. This also helps keep laundry waaaay down.



We don't follow this routine legalistically though.
For example, today we had our home inspection during our usual nap time hours, we kept a friend's baby for the day, and I went to a group exercise class.
So we picked up baby, made it to the class, went home for short, early naps, then ate lunch, went to the children's museum during our normal nap hours, and finally went home for chill time till dinner.
Those main hours of the day were all jumbled but we made it through.
On days like that I just try to make sure everyone alternates active times with a time of rest.
If we keep that pattern throughout a weird day, it's still a relatively peaceful day: minimal whining, fighting, sassing, clingyness.

When we keep our very real limitations in view, we can use what we do have and enjoy all the freedom that comes with it.


Tuesday, July 3, 2018

Planning a Home

I love making a home.
I love maintaining a home.
I actually really like making beds, following our simple routines, resetting the house after a busy day, organizing, hunting for home goods at thrift stores, folding warm laundry, and changing up natural seasonal touches as the months slip by.

Given all that, I am so enjoying making plans for our new home.

When I was first married with my own space for the first time, my decor style was anything goes, color, color, and more color.

Living space by living space, my taste has swung waaaaay over into neutrals, especially for our main living areas.
I'm still eclectic in my finishes and textures.
But I've figured out that a more neutral palette with a good amount of contrast + a handful of warmth is what feels best to us.

It's not just my ideal alone but it what feels best to everyone in our family; it sets the mood for our home life.
Happily, kids and ministry and guests bring a lot of items, (loud) conversation, and activity.

Black, white, and woods are inviting but cool.
Timeless yet fresh.
Artsy but approachable.
This color palette doesn't suck all the oxygen out of the room like mismatched rainbow tones do to me these days.

Simple and quiet country neutral bedroom on Hello Lovely

first home


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It's important to tune your style to the style of the house you're in or there just won't be any harmony.
The new house is older than our current house.
Our current one was built in the 50's and feels it.
Lots of long, straight horizontal lines make for a mid-century vibe. 
The new one has a lot of wood trim and traditional details.
I'll definitely be happy to embrace that classic feel with an artsy, practical twist.

I do branch out with colors (albeit still earthy colors) in the kids rooms or side rooms.
I'm thinking of using peachy pink, tangerine, and olive in small doses in the girls' bedroom.
Having some playful colors in a child's space is just as important as having colors that stay out of the way in a common space.
For our guest room, I love the idea of pale lavender, amber, and white.
Mmmmmm.
Those colors say relaxing, cozy, and fresh.

A lot of the art and wall decor in our current house are things we've had for 6+ years.
I'm going to take this opportunity to give pieces away that I look through now for some prints and items that hold my eye afresh.

As far as furniture and other household necessities, anything we have to purchase must be practical/very functional.
It's got to take a licking and keep on ticking.
Things must be touchable.
Of course I want it to look beautiful too.
Couches and beds must be able to withstand flopping, daily lounging, and jumping.
Things must also be simple to tidy up.
It's taken me some time to really live by this but I'm won over: if it's pretty but fussy or fragile, it won't be around long and we will have just wasted our money.
No thank you.

I can't wait to get over the moving hump and start making a life in a new home.

Friday, June 29, 2018

Controlled Freaking Out

Now that I've got my blog space up to speed on what's happening around here in the real world, I'm definitely going to be using it for my own personal therapy to help me deal.

Because I am wigging out!

Not like constantly but pretty regularly I'll just be going about our normal routine and my brain secretly kicks into planning overdrive thinking of EVERYTHING that needs done.
The way I tick, when that happens my brain starts shouting "do every little thing right NOW!"



I'm really having to be intentional about not letting myself get overwhelmed at the magnitude of everything that has to happen within the next handful of weeks.
Things like doing projects around our current house to have it ready for our friends, signing papers, getting inspections (and paying for it), getting boxes, filling those boxes and trying to keep them organized, figuring out what we can live without for a while and what we need to keep on hand, budgeting for what we will need at the new house, and asking friends to help us move when the day comes.

On top of that is the usual daily care of my three, planning a wedding shower, planning crafts for our church's kids camp, making time to celebrate my daughter's birthday, continuing work on our never-ending adoption, AND saying goodbye to our dear friend's as they leave on mission is enough to keep my hands full.

Plus the general lack of motivation to keep my house in order is daily creeping on because it's all going to get dumped out and moved within a matter of weeks.

See?!

I need to take a major chill pill.
Believe me. I tell myself that often (and so does Adam).

Simply embracing the chaos is becoming more and more important.
Recognizing that I'm getting carried away helps.
Choosing not to feel overwhelmed and instead doing the next thing is calming.
Making lists gets nervous energy out.
Digging in during my quiet time in the morning is grounding, gives me a good reality check, and fills me with fresh gratitude. .
Doing a couple things every day that contributes to the move lets me feel like I'm accomplishing something necessary.

I hate whining and this all sounds like major whining.
Above all I'm grateful for EVERYTHING that is happening and even the way it's happening.
It's exciting and new.
I actually love change.
It's all great stuff that I'll be very happy to look back on in a couple months.

Tuesday, June 26, 2018

Home Improvement

I've been not so subtlety hinting at some big changes in our near future.
Well time to spill the beans: we're moving!

We're staying in Terre Haute but we're moving across town into a new house.
The icing on the cake is the story surrounding our move.
Friends/church family of ours have been missionaries in Italy and came back to the states a few years ago.
They are setting out again this summer on mission in Germany.
I've told my friend for a long time that we would be *very* interested in buying their house if they ever sold it and lo and behold that's what the Lord has asked them to do.
To make the deal EVEN sweeter, another couple who we are close friends with is buying our house!

Everyone is currently signing papers getting the ball rolling so I thought this would be the ideal time to share our news.

Our new home will be much bigger than our current place which will allow us to be a family to more kids.
Yup, we want to adopt again.
We just can't get enough of the bubbling joy that comes with kids.
We love how the gospel is illustrated through adoption.
We have a love/hate relationship with how God works through children to soften and strengthen a parent all at once and make that old parent heart more childlike again.
We daily feel the need in our community for more loving parents to take in children who need a home that will fully commit to them 100%, whatever may come.
We are open to whatever the Lord wants, whether it is another young sibling group or a few singletons one at a time.
We just know that children make you rich and we want to be filthy rich with 'em.

The new home will make this possible as the square footage of our house has to meet certain guidelines for us to have more children.
In our region, foster/adoptive families have to have fifty square feet of bedroom space for each child.
God is blessing us with much more than that and we can only assume He means to fill it up with children who need a family.

We long to be that family.

When I share this hope for our future I see people get a questioning look in their eyes when they do the math of the child to parent ratio.
Or maybe they start assuming we have some secret source of energy/peace/ability/endurance for this kind of work.
While we do have a source, it's no secret and it has nothing to do with who we are as people.
The source of anything good about us is God, Jesus, and the Holy Spirit.
We believe they are urging us towards this and will supply everything each member of our family will need for the blessed task.
As a mom, the part of me that is the Holy Spirit is chomping at the bit, joyful, ready to dive into loving the hearts of these yet unknown children.
The Kensie part of me is admittedly feeling more of a range of things: excitement, alarm, uncertainty, unease at considering how much sleep will be lost for the (worthy) cause of loving new little ones, and a frantic energy to plan/control as much as possible.

We want to be realistic and as prepared as possible so that we might be as free as possible to throw ourselves into the full time care of several young and uniquely needy children.
Of course that looks like this bigger house but it also includes preparing our hearts, the hearts of our children, and reenforcing the things that strengthen our family in the Lord.
Yet faith is essential as we will 100% come to the end of ourselves no matter how much we prepared *praise God*.
We will need the Lord to love us all as only He can.

That's been the greatest thing about anything I've ever done.
From marriage to ministry to fostering, adoption, and parenting it's stepping out in faith, coming to the end myself and getting a front row view of God just being who He is: the ultimate Being who is every good and perfect thing.
That's what life can be all about.
Letting Him do what He does: bringing everyone to the fullness of life in Him.

This is my hope for our new home:
That He would fill the place with Himself, giving Himself through our family to some precious ones who need Him.



Can I ask a favor?
Would you be praying for us?
We desperately need it.
Adam and I are woefully immature and often feel how not ready we are for this.
But God has called us to it and we will obey.
Pray that we would be firm, faithful, and continuously obedient to God.
Pray that we would be humble and not prideful.
Pray for our family's material and practical needs because kids can require special equipment, food, energy and a lot of it.

Pray for Larissa, Kenna, and Malachi as everything from the move to expanding their family isn't their choice but will require new things from them as well.
Pray that God uses this all to draw each of them closer to Him.
Pray that they will catch the vision for the life God has called us to, that we will always be a team.

Pray for the children who will be ours one day.
They might be living through the events that will cause their removal even today.
They might be SUFFERING.
They might be in PAIN or HUNGRY or ALONE or SCARED.
I (Kensie) am painfully aware of this daily and there's nothing I can do but prepare for them and pray.
Pray that whatever bring them into foster care is enough to remove them but that they are protected from long term scars and damage.
Pray that someone loves on them today.
It's possible that the children will be with another foster family before they are placed with us so pray for that family, that they would love our kids like their own.

Thank you for reading this (I hope it made sense).
Thank you for caring.
Thank you for praying.



Saturday, June 2, 2018

Summa' Time!!!!

It is officially summer!!
Wooooo hooo!

Larissa had her last day at school on Thursday




The school year has been so good on so many levels.

Larissa had such a growing experience getting to go to school every morning.
She made a lot of developmental progress and we all got to make a sweet connection with her teacher.
She left preschool just so excited for kindergarten.
She's actually having a hard time understanding the big summer break between the end of this school year and the start of the next.
I think she may still believe she's going to kindergarten on Monday.

McKinley and I enjoyed some more focused time together.
Malachi has made HUGE strides in his understanding and growth.
Our whole family benefited from the structure that comes with school of course.....but I am 100% excited about throwing that structure out the window for a couple months.

I surprised all of the kids by taking them swimming at Shakamak state park right after we picked L up from school.
We packed a lunch, threw on our suits, and hit the road.



I kiss on my kids.... a lot. 

We were all surprised to run into some friends there too.

Eventually some clouds rolled in and we had to roll out but it was our favorite start to what promises to be a memorable summer. 

Details to come... :) 







Friday, June 1, 2018

May Favorites

What I'm doing...

At the beginning of the May I threw a bachelorette camping trip for my little sister. It was so nice to get out of my normal routine and break off into trees, rocks, water, campfires, and new friendships. All of the bridesmaids were invited. My sister has some pretty sweet friends and we all enjoyed meeting each other and seeing the kinds of women my sister has pulled close to her. 










What I'm reading...

I've been reading a lot of Louisa May Alcott. She is most widely known for her Little Women series which is a favorite of mine. I thought I'd branch out a little with her and try some of her short stories and other novels. I made it all the way through A Garland for Girls and A Whisper in the Dark. A Garland for Girls has the same moral tone as her Little Women books. A Whisper in the Dark was much more gothic and serious in style. 

I really want to start reading Little Women with the girls soon. But I'm afraid they won't like it. I'll wait a couple more years but still....it's hard to share things with your kids and them kind of reject it. I'm just crossing my fingers that they enjoy it and glean as much from it as I have. I can only offer it, right?
Image result for a whisper in the dark


What I'm using...

We were gifted a mini photo session with a very talented couple (Wiram Photography) from our church who have been expanding their photography business. Usually we just don't do so well with photo sessions. Someone's crabby. Someone doesn't like what their wearing. Someone would rather be doing something else......and that's just Adam. (See what I did there?) But this time we did our best to make it a fun thing. We scheduled the photos to be taken at a local park and promised the kids some playground time. We brought starbursts to encourage smiley sweetness. I kept the clothing comfy and relaxed. Everything was good. Until we arrived and Malachi promptly had a blow out. And we didn't have any diapers. And I didn't have a change of clothes for him. Oy. So I ran home real quick, grabbed supplies, and turned the crazy train around asap. 

Well it all turned out and I'm happy to say we got some pretty adorable family photos...









 

What I'm wearing...

Lots of dresses, thank the LORD!
The jackets have officially been put away. 
The sandals are out and most of the time Malachi doens't wear pants!

Sweet relief from endless layers, shoes, socks, and weather!


Adam officiated a wedding a couple weeks ago. 
On the note of what I'm wearing, I got to wear this thrifted dress I found last Fall. 
I love it and felt so good in it. 
The girls got to re-wear their flower girl dresses form a wedding last year.
We each felt very happy and pretty.  

What I'm making...

Does making space count?
In this little house full of people I am constantly making space. 
This last month I've kicked my normal efforts up a notch.
We have some things coming up and I just want to clear out what isn't needed and keep what will make life better. 
I thought about having a yard sale but it just isn't worth it to me right now. 
There are a lot of *good*wonderful*amazing*exciting* things happening this summer and I just don't have the energy for a sale too. 
Especially because the return won't make it worth the effort. 
So I've given away or donated most of what I've cleared out. 



Saturday, April 28, 2018

April Favorites

It's time again to share my monthly favorites!
I can barely believe it!
Where has April slipped off to?

What I'm making...

Lists! I've shared here already how busy I foresee this summer being (all good things, all good things) so I've been ramping up for the season by planning out as much as I can. I feel good when I have taken some time to list everything that's expected of me for an event, all the things I need to buy/pack for a trip, or everything I want to accomplish in a finite amount of time.

It's my way of getting out ahead of the chaos so I have to make as few split second decisions as possible.

I do my list making in a regular old notebook. I tear old, used up lists out and toss them when they're done. I actually have notebooks requirements: It has to have a hard cover so it's easy to write in when in sitting in the car or pushing a cart. It has to be spiral bound so I can fold it back on itself. I have to love the cover because it's going to be a constant part of my days until it's used up. It needs to be a medium size (big enough for a full grocery list, small enough to fit easily in my bag). Here is my last one and my current one...





What I'm doing...

While we are still working on our foster care license renewal (shout out to our family and friends who have helped with all our childcare needs!) I am also working on.... I'll call it calorie budgeting. Hahaa! I don't want to say I'm dieting because I'm not trying to loose a ton of weight or anything. A slight slim down would be welcome but I was struck with a need to control and re-calibrate my eating habits.

I was going down some pretty self absorbed mental tracks thinking too much about the way I looked and at the same time overeating sweets and junk food. I felt like I had no control over what I put in my body. I was convicted that I was not taking care of the amazing tool that God gave me to do life through.

I've been using the My Fitness Pal app and a Garmin watch Adam got me a couple years ago, I've stuck to being meticulous about calorie counting for the month of April. I set a reasonable calorie limit and some gentle exercise goals like walking every other day. It's like budgeting honestly. I know how many calories I want to spend on food and I make choices that help me feel satisfied through the whole day. Sometimes I make a little meal plan for the next day and sometimes I just log it as I go. I plan to keep it up through June. I know I won't always live this meticulously, but to retrain my brain on what to expect from my food and exercise has been SO GOOD and I expect some good fruits on the other side.

One more thing that's helped a lot is that site, Eat This Not That. It's amazing what you can eat without feeling deprived but still keeping nutrition and calorie counts in check. I've still eaten fast food and treats when my family does. I can keep it in control without isolating myself from what they are enjoying together. That is really important to me as I work this thing out.

What I'm reading...

I've been reading Sacred Privilege by Kay Warren. She has shared some amazing insight and wisdom on being a pastor's wife in this book. It has come at a really good time for me and I'm soaking it in.




What I'm wearing...
We are still wearing too many layers around here for my liking. I told my SIL (who lives in South Carolina) that we're pretty much wearing shorts and winter coats. I just want to not wear socks and coats and layers ok? Is that too much to ask of the month of April? I don't think so! I jumped on the overall trend and bought a pair of overall shorts.... shorts overalls? I'm not sure which term is right. I bought a pair I can easily cut the bib part off of and just wear as shorts if it doesn't work out. I'm non-committal like that. Ha!



I follow a happy lady named Sena Nelson (@senaenelson) on Insta. I vibe with her style and look. The shorts looked good on her so who knows? Maybe they'll work out for me too.

What I'm using...

I wear contacts and the day before Easter my eyes were so dry and irritated I just plucked my contacts out and tossed them mid-sentence talking to Adam. The next  morning (Easter morning) I was getting ready for church and realized those chucked contacts were my last pair. It was time to get an eye exam and some new lenses. I finally made it to the office (with all three kids in tow) and got an updated prescription. The doctor gave me a stronger prescription and upped me to Acuvue Oasis. Oh my word!!! So much better!. My eyes have been so irritated for so long. It was such a relief to put the new ones in. Now I'm starting to think about Lasik eye surgery. I've had glasses since third grade and glasses since sixth. My eyes seem to be getting worse and it would just be so nice to just get rid off all the eye paraphernalia.

That's it for me this month.
What are you loving?
What makes life a little sweeter for you? 

Wednesday, April 25, 2018

Worth the Wait

April is starting to slip away.
I was surprised with the need to update the white board calendar we keep on the fridge door.

Then later this morning I was putting away clean laundry and I came across a onesie I bought Malachi a few months ago.



It was crumpled up in the back of the drawer, unworn.
Between the two realizations of calendar updating and laundry putting away, I was just struck with some strong emotions.

I thought he would be ours by now.
I thought we'd be celebrating by now.
I thought when I talked to all of his doctors and medical people I could stop listing myself as "foster mom" by now and just finally be "mom".

We waited six years for this boy to be in our arms.
We've cared for and traveled to doctors with and sat through exams with and brought to bioparent visits and court dates and therapies and taught and loved this boy who legally isn't ours for nearly three years more.

And from where I sit and write, there's no true end date in sight.
Sure, adoption might finally happen in June.
I thought it would happen more than a month ago though.
Last year I was thinking it might happen last year.

In this moment the waiting *feels* endless.

But.

He's just totally worth it.
God has created this little kid and He DID put him in our arms and He DID set us on a path to love him as our own even if he wouldn't be ours for quite some time.
God has used the tool of waiting so beautifully in our hearts.
And at the end of this beautiful waiting seems to be a beautiful, tiny boy who is going to need a lot more love, patience, and care.

I just CANNOT wait to call him by my own name and begin waiting on the Lord to see what He does in this boy's heart.



Tuesday, April 10, 2018

Girl Date

A few weeks ago I promised our girls I would take them out on a girls-only date to pick out new bathing suits for the summer and buy a little friend of theirs a birthday present.

Friday was the day and we were all really excited for it.
In the days leading up to it I had to field a bunch of their ideas of what else we could also do on our date: buy a dog, see a movie, is Maddie coming with us?, eat at taco bell, eat at Chick-fil-a, eat at Olive Garden,....

The list goes on :)

The three of us decided that Kenna and I would pick Larissa up from school, then we would eat lunch and play at Chick-fil-a, shop for bathing suits and a few summer clothes at Once Upon a Child, then end it with a needed stop at Walmart (in my mind I also added buy them a treat at Walmart and visit the local humane shelter).





I might be the only person in America who isn't crazy about Chick-fil-a.
It is ALWAYS crazy busy, packed, and chaotic with kids and I'm not a huge fan of chicken honestly. 
But this visit we got there a bit after 11 beating the lunch rush (yay!) and I ordered the grilled chicken sandwich which I never had before and loved. 
So it was a win-win for me this time and the girls just always love it.





88 cent pineapple?!
I grabbed several and I wish I had grabbed more. 


After Walmart, the girls thought we were headed home but I surprised them with a long awaited trip to our humane shelter. 
I've been wanting to bring them there for a long time but I knew as soon as we saw some of those babies we'd want to take one home. 
Willing to take that risk, I pulled into the parking lot to see what we could see.



This was one of the dog areas and it was LOUD LOUD LOUD!
Between the smells, sounds, close quarters, and imposing number 
of pitbull breeds it was a pretty overwhelming area. 
Larissa pretty much walked with her hands over her ears the entire time. 

We did come across this adorable little long haired dachshund 
though who I wanted to run out with immediately.  
So timid and lovey. 



I may actually go back and get this baby though.
Like for real. 
I love her.
She was so sweet and affectionate.
Plus a cat for a pet has been on our mind for a bit now. 

Wanted attention....

....wanted nothing to do with us. 

I love my girls. 
They say and do the funniest/weirdest/sweetest/oddest things and it was good for me to take a minute with just them and see that afresh. 
They're at an age where the questions (good ones and also many many many unnecessary ones) are pretty much endless. 
That wears me out. 
I get impatient and snappy and just plain sour. 
During our date, I made a huge effort to engage with them fully. 
I wanted to stay patient with the flood of questions and comments that pour out of their young, hungry brains. 

I don't know if I was 100% successful but we had fun, made a memory or two, and found some pretty adorable bathing suits to wear all summer.